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Lately I've been trying to learn sufficient self-control to take my time when I masturbate.
We have an analog wall clock in almost every room in the house. These inexpensive clocks have a soft but audible tick. I have been known to use it as a metronome. I lose all sense of time: I've mentioned that I always intend to make it last, but before I know it I'm pumping furiously, and then it's over and I'm seeing with dismay how little time it took.
Interesting how one's time sense warps in these situations.
Listening to the clock gives me something external to pay attention to, as a way to keep my rhythm regular and keep from speeding up unconsciously. I have found that one stroke per second is fast enough to maintain my arousal without making me come. Which is to say, I haven't been able to maintain a one-per-second stroke long enough to climax. I get excited, lose my resolve, and speed up--by which time, at two or three strokes per second, it doesn't take long to finish me off. (As my arousal peaks, it gets harder and harder to pay attention to anything external: I don't even hear the phone ring unless it's in the same room.)
I suppose the next step is to get a kitchen timer and not speed up until that alarm goes off. If that works, I can steadily lengthen the time. If I were wealthy, I might purchase a Venus 2000, plug myself in, set it to one stroke per second, and see in which way my self-control would fail first.
Am I giving this too much thought?
I wonder what would happen if someone else (say, my lovely Partner in Crime) were giving me a hand job at one stroke per second. And wouldn't speed up no matter what my mental state. This is something I'm eager to find out.
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